Full-Blown Pain: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with intense discomfort around one eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Valerie Thompson
Valerie Thompson

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